My Journey is getting more and more interest these days, and I can look back and see how the beginning discoveries are still important resources I use to this day. My main mentor, Dr. Wayne Dyer, was the catalyst that got me to start questioning myself as to who I truly am. I read his first books, "Your Erroneous Zones" and "Pulling Your Own Strings" as a married mother of two, my marriage in question. I was trying to find myself, and looking for a relationship with God that I resonated with in my heart. That was when the real first steps were taken back in 1992.
There was something missing within me and I could not quite put my finger on it. Love seemed illusive and vague. The love I had for my children, unconditional, was never questioned, never any doubt there. The problem was me not feeling loved or unable to really feel I was lovable or was it my inability to receive love? I lived in my head a lot, and not really good at expressing my feelings, because mainly they changed with the wind. I have kept things inside for most of my life, becoming my own therapist and reading everything I could get my hands on.
This is where I am beginning today, going back through some of the resources, books were my go to in the 90's basically the only choices I had. Money to purchase all the high end things like retreats, spas, or workshops that would maybe have upped the progress a little faster was in short supply.
However and whatever it takes to excavate our soul purpose,: we all will get there by many different paths. I am finally seeing the light after 28 years in and out of this tunnel, and I sure do hope it is not another train.!!! Seriously, Light and Love have always been there just waiting for me to awaken from the illusions I created so I could grow and expand in Divine Time. This time the light is coming from within me and lighting the way. I am excited to see where we are going!!